Wow! You all here are so great! I thank you all for the laughs and smiles from reading the posts. It felt good to get it off my chest. I have a DIY hammock so not on the ground yet (smiling). Thank you for all who offered to help me out! You all rock! I had to write the post to let someone know who would understand. Told friends but they all look at me like I am stupid. Not to many understand. Thank you all for understanding.