I missed the part where you mentioned that your significant other was no longer able to do the things he wants to, CM. That makes things rougher, but--as I'm sure you've already run across--it is going to flavor every part of your life rather than just this one.
The questions you have to ask yourself seem to be simple:
1.) "Do I (CM) have the skills needed to care for myself should something go wrong within reasonable bounds while on a solo hike?"
and
2.) "How much of this fear about my activities is regret over no longer being able to do them with me and how much is real care for my well-being?"
The answer to the first should help determine the answer to the second. If you have the basic skills needed (and it seems you do, from your posts), then I think--and I don't intend to speak for anyone else here--that you should probably have a long talk about the answers to the second question.
Your significant other obviously cares about you; I doubt you'd've stuck around otherwise. However, there is a point where caring about someone else becomes a self-indulgent pastime that neither of you can afford. When fear of failing to protect the person you care about becomes more important than their needs to you, you need to reassess your actions and emotions. As with all things in life, though, it does need to be weighed against the rest of what's going on.
Maybe I'm off-base here, and please feel free to tell me where to shove it if I am. But it does seem as if it might be a worthwhile conversation to have between the two of you. It isn't going to be an easy one, but I think it might be worth it.
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